坐在冷冷的办公室里
外面的雨，大力拍打着窗户

听着MP3，打着键盘
重复做着一样枯燥乏味的工作
这就是我未来两个月的生活

每次只要自己开始厌烦，开始累了
我就会不停地问自己
“这是我要的生活吗”
“真的是这样吗”

我比任何人都清楚
这不是我要的

所以我甚至想逃出这里
寻找自己喜欢的东西

可是为什么我还是得呆在这里呢？
因为这就是人生
那么由不得人。。。

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When things are out of our control, We try to adapt to it... Because that is best for ourselves...

Finished the part time job at Funan...
It's fun yet tiring...
It's interesting yet boring...

Haha....
I told a lie today...
Haha..
But of course it is a 善意的谎言
Let's hope good things happen because of it...
Haha...

I am tired...
I am missing my bed terribly...
Haha...
Nights people..!!!!

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前几天看到了一位作家写了这么一句话

爱情可以很伟大
也可以很卑微
我们可以因为爱一个人而拥有全世界，这就是伟大
我们也可以因为爱一个人而放弃全世界，这就是卑微

读了之后
我觉得很有道理
让人有很多的思考空间
让人又不一样的体验

对爱，有不一样的见解

你觉得呢？

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Remembering is the start of forgetting....

Guess what I have done today???

Haha...
WORK...
(I know... It's lame)

Why do I say it's fruitful? Because it's fun... Ok... The thing I am selling is not very interesting...
Haha... But I think it's a good experience..

What am I selling??? Norton softwares... Haha... Yes... Norton Anti Virus Softwares... At Funan IT Mall..

And it so happen that the shop that I am working at belongs to the Mum of someone from Nan Hua...!!! So coincidental right??

Haha...

I sold like 13 softwares today... Haha... It's less than Lynnette but I think not bad le... Haha... The best seller out of stock le... Let's wish me all the best for tomorrow...

Haha...

I realised that I am like typing in a different way today... Don't blame me... My brain is not functioning well already... It's filled with the usage of Anti virus softwares now... Hahahahaha....

Ok...
I am off to watch my shows... Haha...
Relaxation time..!!!!

=SmileX=
If you think you are a nobody, think twice... You might be the world or the most important person to your love ones..!! =P

忍耐
是生存的方法

可是有几个人可以做得到？

开心
是生活的中心

可是有几个人可以天天带着微笑？

爱情
可以使人的支柱

可是有几个人真的能找到真爱？

看着身边的人双双对对
没错
我很羡慕
也很渴望拥有
可是毕竟无法强求

看着身边的人分分离离
没错
我很伤心
也很希望帮忙
可是毕竟不管我事

爱
是互相信任
是互相关心
是互相照顾

每个人都有天生的另一半
是吗？
那可不可以有人告诉我
有什么办法
可以找到我的另一半？

=SmileX=
怕受伤的人，可以谈恋爱吗？

Hehe...
Haven't been updated for so long...
Haha...

Ok...
Let's do a recap...

Monday..
Work...

Tuesday...
Work and shop and sing... =P

Wednesday...
Happy Valentines' Day..!!!!

It's from my Auntie..
Haha..

Thursday...
Nothing in particular???

Friday...
Prayers and shopping and reunion dinner...
Haha...
I helped cooking today..
Waha...

The BIG prawns that I fried...

Haha...

The vegetables I cooked...


The noodles I had a part cooking...
Haha...

But I am tired now...
Because I went shopping with my sister...
I bought this bag that I thought was really cool...
Haha..
It was like this.........



And now this..!!!



Haha...
I love it...
Wahaha...

I am supposed to get my new HP Pavillion laptop tomorrow...
Let's hope it really gets here...
Haha....

=SmileX=
High on air...

Ok guys...
Please forgive this fickle minded friend of yours...
haha..
I have reason de la ok..??
I will explain to you guys if I have the time...
Haha...

FINAL CONFIRMED DETAILS

DATE: 10th MARCH
VENUE: Choa Chu Kang Kbox
TIME: 1.30pm-7pm

Cake cutting about 4 pm...

Pls tag at my tagboard to let me know if you can come??

THANKS A MILLION..!!

Pai seh ah..!!
I know I very ma fan...
Hehe...

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When things are out of hand, just stick to the original plan...

Haha..
I am ok le...
Took less than a day to think it through...
Haha...
I thought about it le...
Decided to take things as it is...
If it doesn't turn out the way I expect it to...
I will change it...
Haha..

Will keep u guys updated...
Now it's 11th March at CCK Kbox...
1.30 to 7...
Thanks..

Anyway Mum and Dad is back...
I got a new Sony MP3 player...
A pair of portable sony Speakers...
Haha...
And new T-shirts...
Guess it's part of the reason why I am no longer sad and affected?
I don't care le la...
I will make things happen...
Waha...
If you are thinking "she has split personality"
Yes... I think so too...
Haha...

=SmileX=
The only way to have true happiness is when you find it yourself...

Haiz...
I guess u all know what happened...
I changed my party date to the 11th...
It was due to UNFORESEEN circumstances...
I am so tired now...
I didn't expect things to turn out like that...
It's was not supposed to be like that...
Make me SO feel like cancelling the whole damn thing...
And just have a celebration with the sixters like the past few yrs...

If my guest list is shrinking too much...
I might cancel the whole party...
But I will inform you guys in advance...
Thanks to everyone who replied..
It's ok if you can't make it...
I understand...
It's just that I didn't expected this and it's super sudden...

I just caught me totally unprepared...
I am like...
Still in a state of shock...
I think I am going to have a hard time going to sleep tonight...

现在心情真的很乱
事情没有按照我想的发生
发生了突发状况
害我乱了阵脚
好想就算了
18岁就平静地和好朋友度过好了
反正又不是第一次
干什么要弄一个party
那么麻烦
又那么累
搞得自己不开心
整个人跌到谷底
哎
麻烦

对不起
但是我是一个不怎么能接受变化的人
这就是我
算了
现在只能走一步算一步

请允许我消失一天，谢谢
过了明天，我会想通的！

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Coincidences happen too frequently in this small world..

Why is today not a good day?
Let me tell you what has happened since my day started...

First, I had wake up 6am to prepare my brother for school...
(Note: I didn't fall asleep till 2am in the morning)

Second, when I wanted to go back to sleep...
I took another 1 hour to fall asleep...

Third, I woke up at 9.45am...
This makes me LATE for my Japanese lesson at 10.!

Fourth, I took a cab and rushed down and reached at 10.15...
(Waha... Only took half and hour..!)
When I reached the centre, the receptionist told me that the teacher was not here...
AND WILL NOT BE COMING...
Because I didn't book a slot..
Problem is... I DID book a slot last Saturday..!!
Never mind... Another teacher had lessons with me though...

Fifth, I spent 80% of my money in my bank for the Japanese lessons (Level 2) fees...
This is the first time I am SO poor for the past 1 yr...
Having the thinking that I am BROKE...
I went home the cheaper way... By bus...
On the bus, there was this irritating young man next to me...
But he was making the noise that I totally dislike with his nose...
(sounded like he had a flu.. But I don't care... 'Cos he is NOISEY!!)
Then another guy came and "joined" him in making the noise...
I blasted my music into my ear...

Sixth, There was a little girl sitting behind me...
She was also very noisey...
But since she was a kid... Never mind la...
BUT
She kicked my chair for like 5 mins...
I was like..!!!!!!!!!

That's the end of my bad day...

The only good thing that happened, I had a 4 hour afternoon nap...
Haha...

=SmileX=
If turning back only brings you pain, strive on and move forward...

Hey guys...
I know all of you are busy mugging, busy with whatever you have...
But don't forget the rest...
Ya??
Don't fall sick...
Don't be unhappy...
Don't stress yourselves...

Don't forget I will be here...
Hehe...
(Too free??)
Haha...

Must remember to rest...
Must remember to relax...
Don't want to see any of you so tired over 'A' Levels..
Though I know it's stressful and tiring...

Come for the Gatherings...
Can play and destress and the same time...
Haha..

=SmileX=
So what if your Valentine's Day is celebrated with your friends?? It's still good... =D

I think I have been a good sister and granddaughter for a day...
Haha...

Though I woke up late...
Haha..
Brought my brother to his computer lessons at Harbour Front...
Then brought my grandparents to Chinatown to walk walk...
Haha..

I was not totally a futile trip...
Went to buy more beading materials..
(I just can't resist it...)
Haha..
Updated 2 new necklaces onto my accessory blog..
Can go take a look..
Haha..
Friends got discount..
Haha...

Then I bought a pair of shoes too..!!
Haha..
Finally bought something that I think will last??
Haha...
Most of my shoes don't last me more than 6 months??
In short...
My things don't last...
Haha...
It's a known fact...
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I don't know why...
But I have never felt that I needed a boyfriend more than now..
Suddenly...
I felt strongly that I needed a boyfriend....
I know...
It's weird...
I think so too....
But when I see couples walking in front of me...
I so envious of them...
Haha...
Crazy right??
I know...

=SmileX=
Care for the people around you more... You never know what will happen next...

不明白
不明白为什么世界上会有双面人
他们是如此的可恶！
说一套做一套
在你背后捅一刀，之后又和你当朋友！
可恶！太可恶了！
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I am having a bad tummyache...
I don't know why...
And it just doesn't seem to go away...
Haiz...
It's affecting my trail of thoughts...
Hope it will recover soon...
I feel so unwell...

=SmileX=
Don't fret over it... Talk it over with a friend.. =)

I have like 2 last assignments to complete...
But I am running out of ideas, grammar, vocabulary etc...
I am SO brain dead...
Haiz...

Who can help me??
I just finished designing half of it...
Half more to go...
There is another 1500 words report to finish...
ARGH..!!
Why brain dead at this time??!!
Should happen like 2 days later??!!

I must SO start to bia for my Japanese too...
Haha...
I feel like my standard is SUPER low...
Haha...
Like never learn anything??!!

Haha...
*what's with all the capital and "??!!"*
Haha...
Sorry.. It comes naturally...
Haiz...
Tired ah..!!

It's already 1.20 am by the way...

Mum and Dad left for America yesterday evening...
For 1 whole week..!!
Can you imagine??
I have to take care of my brother...
Make sure he finish his homework...
Make sure he does not play too much games...
OMG..!!
Will turn super naggy la~~~
Ok... Actually I already am...
Haha...
1 week..!!
It's the longest trip they have went...
But no choice...
I know they have their reasons...

My sister's super stress at work...
Seeing her cry hurts me too...
But what can I do??
I can only do this much...
The rest, is up to her...
Never mind...
She is leaving...
Let's hope it's for the better...

It's going to be a "responsible-ful" week...
Wish me luck..!!
Back to the bia-ing process...
Haha..

=SmileX=
Learn to relax... Before we get stressed out and things get out of hand...

I am TOO easily irritated...
To the unbelievable extent...
I'm not kidding...
Because a typical Pisces...
I have very big mood swings...
This second I am smiling, talking to you happily...
The next second?
I am screaming at you...
Haiz...

I know it's not good..
I know it's affecting people's life too...
But what to do?
Every time I try to control, it just accumulates,
And "BOOM"..!!
Goes off like nobody's business...

Sometimes...
I get irritated because people ARE irritating...
They can go on and on about the same topic and never seem to get tired...
I can't stand these people...
But what can I do when we live under the same roof?

The best song to describe my feelings?
林晓培--烦
Get it??
Haha...


Important Announcement..!!

Please keep yourself free on the 10th of March...
I will be celebrating my 18th at CCK Kbox...
Will sms you the details at a later date...
So if you receive my sms...
It simply means YOU ARE INVITED...
Haha..
But if you don't, it's not that I don't regard you as a friend...
Maybe I don't have your handphone number??
Haha...
But I think people who reads my blog will be invited la~~
Haha...

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Many a time, we have to put down certain things in order to move forward...

Haha... From my last post on Wretch...
It has been 1 week since I last updated??!!
Haha...
That is LONG for me...

Now let me fill you in...
Hah..

Monday was just school...
Nothing special...

Tuesday was...
Hmm...
Work and shopping?
I can't really remember...
Don't forget...
I'm senile...

Wednesday...
Acting @ Orchard??
Ok, My group's was not ideal..
But, nevermind, because it's over..!!
One more module down.. Haha...

Thursday...
Working at the office then over to my Sister's place...
Went to People's park to buy materials to make necklaces...
Will post them up to my accessory blog soon.!!
I spent another bomb there...

Went to the childcare my sister is working at...
Look at the cute babies/toddlers...

The few months old...





The 1 year old...





Aren't they cute.??
haha..

Friday...
Went with mag, weii and netty to do the media report...
Haha..
Hope it will turn out well..!!

Today...
Supposed to have meeting with the sixters..
But was cancelled cos yx and xx can't make it..

Now...
Rotting...

=SmileX=
Encourage yourself at times, there is nothing wrong with it...

Haha...
Yes...
I decided to come back to blogger because I realised Wretch is always under maintenance. So sickening. Let's hope it will last long.

For those people who don't know, this was my very first blog. But I went to change to wretch. Haha...

Now, I am back...

People, Please change your links ok?

Thank You

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