夜深人静
播着音乐
打着键盘
让人特别感伤
想的事情，也特别多

有时希望世界不会变
会想我要的那样
而且一直保持一样的状态
我不是一个很能接受变化的人
我甚至喜欢一尘不变
可是，太久不变，我又觉得太闷。。。

我是矛盾的
我不否认

有时我只希望
在我开心的时候
有人和我分享
在我伤心的时候
有人安慰我
在我快崩溃的时候
有人来扶我
在我孤单寂寞的时候
有人来陪我

可是这个人一直没有出现
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A nice song to share with you...
By Janice 卫兰
《Never let you go》

The rain, just never seems to bring the joy,
I feel the same everlasting pain of my loss remains
My heart, can't seem to learn to part
the hold you left your mark all that
I dreamed of now it seems so stark
Tho I told myself to hold my breath
a part of me was dying t
here is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes a
nd you know, I'd never let you go

Ooooo… Oh~~~

The way, you left me on the train
I don't know what to say
I remember everything that day
I can't believe we'd never danced
I just need one more chance
to share the sunset our last romance
Tho I told myself to hold my breath
a part of me was dying
there is nothing left for me to do now, but give in
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would sing to you and tell you I won't live my life without you
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling
I would hold your hand and look in your eyes and you know,
I'd never let you go


Somehow I think of you when I hear this song


=SmileX=
If you gave me, one chance to tell you how i was feeling

Haha..
It's third week...
So tired...
Haha...
OK...
There is no one time I don't say I am not tired...
haha...

We had Yang Jun Wei's class today and we all got a chance to get the feel to be a DJ...
Haha..
It is supposed to be a test...
Next Next week...
SO nervous...
He is going to be sitting next to us..!!!
ARGH....

Three bad things happened to me today....
1) when we took the number for the sequence we were going to present for the radio thingy... I got the LAST.... I was SOOOOO like.... WTH...Haha...

2) I actually chose to play MayDay's 最重要的小事, and teacher say he don't like Ah xin... ARGH..!!!! 晴天霹雳..!!!!

3) I cannot say here.. Haha...

I feel so bad to neglect my accessory blog...
But really not on purpose...
But I really very busy and I have no energy...
Haha...
BUT
I will do it....
SOON...
Haha...

Still have filming for Video Production tomorrow...
ARGH..!!
Wish me luck...
Thanks to Lynnette for agreeing to help me..!!
Haha...

Off to watch tv...
(my way of relaxing...)
Haha

=SmileX=
No time to fall in love... But I still want to... But... No one...
Haha... (siao rite?)

Haha...
I am seriously starting to neglect this blog..!!
Haha...
But I will try to come more often from now on..!!!

It's only second week of school and I am super duper tired now... I think I am really seriously getting old...
I need sleep..!!!!
But it seems like I can never get enough....

I just came back not long ago from my Video Production Class...
The more I look at my teacher...
The more I think he looks cute...
Haha...
He is married...
And he sure looks like a GOOD husband....
Haha...
I am sure Joycelyn will agree with me??
Haha...

Modules this semester is tough, complicating, confusing but FUN...
At least the teachers are...
haha...
This semester onwards is really important to me...
So I must study harder..!! Haha...
(I promise I will try...Hehe)

Because I lost my ability to sing like last time...
I am singing alot now..
Haha..
To bring my voice back to normal...
Let me introduce to everyone a very very very nice song...

From 《热情仲夏》 Soundtrack...

《好好爱我》

爱的花朵萌芽时候
有意无意触动
几分酸酸甜甜的心动
你是否感觉到我
看着你给她的笑容
收好我的感受
想说不能说的失落
把爱藏进了我　心里头

好好爱我
给我一个仲夏天空
你的坚定眼神带着我
穿越大雨滂沱
雨声沉默了
听见了风的温柔
不怕孤单　
不再退缩
只是你没说

好好爱我
只是朋友般拥抱着
却不能够感受你所有喜怒哀乐让我拥有
也许我不懂
感情的虚构
我的耳朵听见寂寞说了
一个梦

再不迷惑
感情的折磨
无疾而终
只是怕了
懂了　错了
难过会找上我

沉默　等候　诚实的微风
无动于衷
牵起你的手
眼泪不流
但我知道
默默叹气
你已独走

好好爱我
只是朋友般拥抱着
却不能够感受你所有喜怒哀乐让我拥有
也许我不懂
感情的虚构
我的耳朵听见寂寞说了
一个梦

Can ask me for the song if you want...
Haha...

=SmileX=
I have no time..!!

I feel so sick...
I was having tonsilitis again...
Remember when I was in Secondary school I took 1 week MC??
Ya...
It's the same illness...
But this time it was the beginning stage...
So it's not so bad...

Went to the 24hr clinic once I touched down from Penang...
It costed me a bloody $56..!!!!!
OMG...
I was like.............................
Haha....

Now, after 5 days course of antibiotics, I still haven't fully recover...
So I guess I will need to go back and take another 5 days course...

Let's hope it's not so expensive....
Haha....

I have sadly....
Lost the ability to sing....
OMG
Can you believe it??
I feel so super sad la~~~~~
I CAN'T SING..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I must try all ways and means to recover...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ARGH...
I can't accept the fact that I can't sing.....

=SmileX=
I want to sing...

I have no idea why my previous post sort of "disappeared"....
Haha...
Nevermind about that...

I felt a little guilty when I was going thru my friends' blog and realised I haven't been updating... Haha....

OK....

I have a reason ok??
My laptop was sent for servicing last week...
Only got back yesterday....
The worst part is that they had to reformat it and I had to "re-built" it again....
But nevermind...
It's 90% done...
Can't remember what I have not done...
So let's just settle for it like that first...

I can only say school for this semester is going to be really really tiring....
I am already damn tired out after like 4 days of school...
And it's a freaking 16 more weeks to go..!!!
Haha...

But I decided that this semester I must work really really hard...
Because I have to pull up my GPA because I WANT to go UNIVERSITY..!!!!!
Haha...
And yes, the university is in China...
Haha....
But my results now are NOT good enough...
And it is definitely not good...

So this semester onwards....
I am going to work really hard...
(at least I will try to work really hard)

Wahahahahaha.....

Tired....
Still have Japanese Class tomorrow...
Nights...

=SmileX=
Working hard towards my dream....

Hehe…
Back to blog…
Finally have the “feel” to do it…
Let me take a break from the Tokyo trip…
If not my blog is going to look like a traveling blog…
Haha…

So let’s talk about what I have done…
Last Thursday was just working…
So it’s a boring day…
Haha…
I was playing my computer in front of the television in the living room…
Then my mum came down to chit chat…
Then I was like asking her if I could have a second ear piercing…
Because I wanted it since like 4 years ago…
But because my dad said, “go lo… then don’t come home.”
Haha…
So that was the end of the topic…
When I told my mum…
She said “OK”…
OMG…
Can you imagine how happy I was.??
Haha…

Friday was Good Friday.. So I didn’t have to work…
But my family wanted to go to the temple…
So we left home in the morning…
Went to like 2 temples…
Then we decided to go Tangs…
Went to look at people demonstrate how to use the woks..!!!
Hahahahahahahahaha…
Then we went Takashimaya for an early dinner….

Then….
Me and my Sis went over to Wisma…
For what???





Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha…

I am so happy ~~~~~~~~…
I finally got what I wanted…
Haha…

If you could remember, I was saying that my Auntie tendered her resignation…
Haha…
It’s a misunderstanding…
Haha…
She was just passing another employee’s letter to my mum..!!!
Haha…
I am so blur la…
But I was so relieved to hear that…
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Things are happening..
Not that I like them…
But it’s not up to me…
But I learnt to accept things…
Even if they are not what I thought they would be…

Take a step back…
Maybe things aren’t that bad…
It might turn out good…
For all you know…

I will take over my mum’s business one fine day…
Maybe even my Dad’s…
Then I will be a business woman…
Haha…

This was not part of my future plans…
But it came into my plans…
I don’t dislike it…
Because I know it’s my responsibility…
Because it’s almost impossible for my sis to take over…

So I won’t hide from it..
I will do it…
Because I believe I can…
Haha…
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有时我希望有人会在我无聊的时候，
出现在我面前，逗我笑，让我不无聊

有时我希望有人会把我放在第一位
让我有被宠爱，被珍惜的感觉。

可是我会回头想想，一切都有结束的时候
再开心，也会结束。。。
那为什么要开始呢？

可是我还是想拥有
就算时间不长，结束会很痛。。。
我还是想尝试。。。=P

=SmileX=
好想谈恋爱。。。

Haha…
Lazy me has not been updating again,…
Haha…
Okok… But here I am…. Updating the never ending story of Tokyo AGAIN….
Haha…

Ok…
After 浅草, we were supposed to be on the train on the way back to our hotel…
My dear Dad decided that we shall drop at the interchange and walk walk in the Japanese Seafood market…
But I was not feeling very well during that time…
So I suppose my face was black…
Haha…

But it was quite an eye opening experience… it’s something like our wet market…
But it’s not dirty…
And it’s not smelly…
It only sells seafood and other shopping stuffs anyway….
No poultry, no vegetables…

By the way… the station is called Ueno (U-E-NO) 上野…

The train station…



The inside of the station…



Super big right???
There are also many shops inside like bakery, bookshops etc.
Very different from our local MRT stations…

As usual…
In Tokyo, you WALK to anyway you want…
So, after you come out from the station, you still need to take a 5 mins walk to the seafood place…

Along the way, we saw many “arcades”…
Some are like the ones we have in Singapore, but some are like the “gambling places” I was referring to in my previous posts…
This is the “casino like place”
I heard that people actually gamble money inside….



Ya…
And my Dad LOVES coming into my pictures…



Now you know why Singapore has more and more such machines???



Tokyo has MORE….
Haha…

I also realize that girls there really wear their skirts really really short…
Those things we see in the Japanese dramas are REAL….
All the students actually make up, set their hair and everything before going to school…



See??
I was not lying…
They are just a small tiny portion of the many many girls who does this…
Haha…
But I guess it’s normal there…
Because you see them all over the streets…

Now into the seafood place…
This are the few more interesting I saw…



The people so poor thing…
Keep screaming and shouting to get more business….
Haha…



This is fish roe…
The ones we see on the sushi..
2 boxes only for 1000 yen… which is like SGD13..!!!!
Super cheap la…
I so wanted to buy…
But it would not be nice by the time I reach home…
If you didn’t know, the fish roe in Singapore is super expensive…
A small small container can easily cost up to SGD6.50..!!!
And I mean the container is really small… like probably one fifth of the one in the picture…

Ok… now look at the picture below…


See the BIG octopus????
OMG..!!!!!
(BTW, I LOVE SOTONG AND OCTOPUS AND CUTTLEFISH)
Wahahahahaha…..
It’s like even bigger than my 2 palms put together..!!!
Freaking BIG la….
Haha….



Look at the girl’s hair…
She must have spent a long time doing it man….
Haha…
Just in case you are thinking what she is doing..
She is making something that looks like Tako Pachi…
But they are much bigger…
Like the size of a tennis ball….
And I think it’s a kind of dessert…
Haha…
Didn’t really take a close look…
Haha..

After we spent like one and a half hour at this place…
We were all freaking tired and took the train back….
But this is what welcomed us at 池袋 station…



Because it was like 5-6 pm…
So everyone is like going home…
Mum says they look like black ants…
The males there ALL wear black suits and with a long coat…
The colours are more or less the same…
Haha…

This is how the train routes look like…



Haha…
Scary right???
Their train practically goes EVERYWHERE you will want to go in Tokyo…
So it’s very convenient…
But very confusing too…

Dad says that life is just like the Tokyo metro system….
You never know where you will end up at…
Be clear of where you want to go…
Because it’s just too easy to get lost…
That is why you always plan your route…
Even if you get lost…
You will still get to where you want to go…
Just that you will take a longer time to reach…
But you will still reach there.

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Auntie just tendered her resignation…
I don’t know why….
I feel angry….
A little bit…
Very disappointed…
Haiz….
She is leaving us…
Like why??
Why at a time like this??
Because her daughter is giving birth??
Haiz…
I don’t know…
Feel so lost now…
I know she is old le…
Need to retire and enjoy life…
But…but…
I don’t know why…
I am still very very upset by the whole thing…
Am I being too selfish??

=SmileX=
I feel so stressed….