Went to Aijitei at Takashimaya yesterday with my Family...
Here are some pictures...
I believe they are self explanatory!
Haha..



















This picture is for LYNNETTE....
Hahaha...



Can you believe it?
I am actually tuning my sister's guitar NOW...
I really wanted to learn very long le...
But nobody teach me....
haiz...

=SmileX=
Can my wish come true?

Today is Monday...
Like duh?
Test in the morning...
I think it should be ok...
I guess..

We had singing group today...
Only 2 members came...
I would be lying if I didn't care...
But at least the 2 who came showed keen interest...
That made me feel better...
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Damn it...
You are CONTROLLING my emotions...
I don't like it..
I never liked to be controlled...
The worst part is that you are forgetting about me...
Now I am the one chasing after you...
Why?
Like.................
Damn it...

I am going back to my life...
At least I will try to...

=SmileX=
I don't like to be controlled...

I am actually posting about what happened on 28th July, Saturday..
It's because it's now 12.39am...
That's why it's reflected as 29th July...

Went to Kbox at AMK with Joycelyn and Lynnette...
My two sisters...
Gosh...
We had so much fun...
Comparing...
Gek-ing....
Encouraging...
Making fun of each other...
We sang from 2 -7.30...
I lost a bit of my voice...
But Hey!
My voice recovers fast..
Haha...
(Let's hope I don't wake up with a sore throat tmr)

I love talking to my sisters...
Though they love to joke around...
But they do talk with brains sometimes...
HAHAHAHAHA
I can totally imagine me being scolded by them..!!
Haha...

I really enjoyed myself alot today...
haha...
After that I went to my Auntie's house to eat dinner...
I saw my cute little cousin...
He is the cutest being on earth..
So innocent and pure...
I love him!

I am dead tired now...
My day started at 10 and is not ending yet!
I still have to study for my Contemporary Chinese Language test on Monday...
Damn it...
Yes.
Damn it...

Because I flunked my Interpretation...
And this Contemporary Chinese Language is taught by my Interpretation lecturer...
I feel stressed...
Because I feel that I've let him down on my Interpretation...
I will Jia you de!

I have to get back to studying!
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Regarding my work...
It seems that everything is confirmed...
I WILL be taking over my Dad and Mum's company...
I don't mind actually...
I am, in fact, finding interest in it...
I believe I will be going straight in to work after my degree...
And if nothing goes wrong...
I will be taking Degree in Marketing...
Let's hope it's this way?
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Regarding matters of the heart....
It's a feeling I've never felt...
We haven't known each other for long...
But the feeling is there...
Left me at quite a lost at what to do...
My friends told me to put you to tests...
But you didn't pass any of them...
I don't know what to do now...
I only hope things turn out right...

All the sms and msn are addictive...
It's only been 2 hours?
I'm missing you already.

If you see this...
And you think I am talking about you...
Please let me know how you think?
I know what I am thinking...
I hope you are thinking the same.

If you are treating me as a friend...
And do not wish to go any further...
Go away.
Don't waste anymore of my time, efforts and feelings.
I've wasted enough.
I don't wish to let things go on like that...

Someone told me to wait till tomorrow...
Fine.
I will wait.
Let's hope I get the answer..

=SmileX=
I love my Mummy...

Today is a TIRING day....
Went to the office in the morning...
Then was "asked" to go help some people at the Nokia building at Alexandra Rd....
Spent the WHOLE day there..
My eyeballs almost popped out!
I was staring at the screen and the file...
OH MY GOSH....
I could die from it...
Haha....

Had a nice talk with Mummy...
I like talking to Mummy...
She is a nice listener...
Haha...
Really told her EVERYTHING that went through my mind these few days...
I like it when I don't have to hide anything from her...
Because it's almost impossible....
Anyway Mummy didn't flare up or anything...
She gave constructive advices...
Hehe...

We made Tang Yuan...
I think tomorrow need to pray pray ah...



My Dad's....
I already forgot when was the last time he made tang yuan together with us...
I am really glad he has changed for the better!!
I can't stand MCPs..!!



My sister's....



My Mum's...
The pro level de...



MINE..!!!
I can make very nice ones...
But I don't know why I somehow lost my ability to estimate the size...



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So scary...
Don't have=nothing...
Have=more than one!
Gosh...
I will die from heart attack soon....

Eyebag = 桃花？

=SmileX=
CONFUSED...

Today's Danny Yeo lesson was fun..!!!
I am TOTALLY looking forward to the presentation day..!!
Haha...
I was having fun rebutting everyone...
Haha...
I know I am evil...
Hehe...

It has been raining these few days...
Sickening lo...
No doubt, it's cooling...
But it's very risky...
Because I WALK home from school...
So I depend on the good weather alot....
Haiz....

I actually don't have much to say...
But I still logged in and blog..
Haha..
I told you I am going crazy...
VERY.
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我的情绪整个是处于一个失控的境界
无药可救
放空、发呆成为我的习惯
我疯了
失去自我
没了尊严
失了魂
这就是现在的我。

他赢了。
我输了。

我输给命运。

摘自颜行书的部落格。。。
我很喜欢这段文字

如果相遇感到相知，那麼有一種習慣叫陪伴。
如果陪伴感到珍惜，那麼有一種甜蜜叫存在。
如果存在感到壓力，那麼有一種善良叫離開。
如果離開感到放鬆，那麼有一種勇敢叫放棄

很有“feel”。。。

=SmileX=
Things are meant to go this way... I guess?

Today was a total waste of time..
The old man ask us to go school listen to him talk crap..!!
(I never put "stupid" or "irritating" le... because he has changed for the better...)
Haha..
BUT
The good news is I don't have class next Wednesday.!
But I think I will be camping at the editing room...
Because I need to finish the video editing.!
And I must finish it well.!!

I seriously have been updating my blog super frequently...
Haha..

Let me show you the editing room...
People think it's eerie...
I think it's ok..
I have always been alone in the room...
Haha...



=SmileX=
Let nature take its course....

Surrounded by four walls...
Yesterday I was sitting here...
Smiling..
Today I am sitting here...
I can't smile..

My heart knows what she wants..
But my brain is thinking otherwise..
Insecurity and the unreal feel is overwhelming..
Too much for me.

I have been hurt.
Once is enough.
That feeling is not good.

Strucked by coldness,
All I have around me is colder air.

I don't know what is going on.
Everything seems unreal.
What can I do to save myself?
Who is here to save me?

Everything happened too fast
I am confused.
I feel dreamy.
Maybe it was all but a DREAM

=SmileX=
I feel complicated.!

Yeah...
The counter passed 2000....
Haha....
It's nothing great actually...
Haha...
But I just want to say it...

Today was OK....
I reached school freaking early though...
I reached at 8.30!
When my class is at 2!
So crazy la~~~~

All because of the stupid classroom key...
YES...
It's because of A KEY!!!

Did a little bit of the editing for the video....
But I was not in the right mind to do it...
So I didn't manage to do much....

Taught the girls how to do the editing...
Although some of the things I taught are wrong...
Sorry girls!!!

Got 7 upon 10 for editing test...
Cheung was SUPER DUPER ULTRA strict..!!!
I was disappointed....
But nevermind...
I did it as a pair with Cheng Yao...
He is good de lo~~
He has a good storyline thinking....
Haha...

Happy Belated Birthday to Grace..!!!
Hope you like the present..!!!
We had a hard time thinking of a nice plot lo..!!
Haha...

I realised I have been updating my blog super frequently...
1 entry each day!
(almost)
Haha...
That a good sign?!
Haha...
I don't know...
I am just bored...
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I am losing control over myself...
This is not me...
I am going crazy...
Soon...
Losing control over my thoughts..
I can't concentrate...
I can't think straght....
I can't think right...

This is not the normal me...
Gosh...
I don't know if this is good...
I may be harming myself....
I may be hurting myself with out me knowing...
I may be living in my dreams and hallucination again...
I may be all my wishful thinking...

I am afraid of losing what I have...

=SmileX=
Putting on a smile.... Think positive.!

Today is a DISAPPOINTING day for me...
The day started wrong when I woke up late....
And when I know I couldn't concentrate during my Japanese Language Lesson....

I knew it was "OH SHIT" for my Interpretation test in the afternoon...
But I still told myself...
"It's ok.. You can do it.! You have always been ok..."

Point proven wrong.!
I flunked it.!
TOTALLY....
Yes... it's a T-O-T-A-L-L-Y
I totally left out one whole sentence for the Chinese - English one...
And one VERY important point for the English - Chinese one...
Gosh...
I really had the extreme urge to cry...
But....

事情已经过去了
伤心难过也于事无补
不如一笑置之
也许会开心一点

Now I understand what it means by
"An overstretched rubber band will only end up breaking.."
I stressed myself too much...
I guess my 3.2 GPA is gone...
As of today??

But what can I do??
The absolute answer is NOTHING....

I am disappointed....
If course I am...
I am an emotional Piscean....

But oh well...
It's over...
I can only tell myself "don't brood over it"

Don't leave me alone when I am upset...
I tend to spend money...

I just bought 迷路兵 and 柯有纶 album....
See??
I told you....

*Lynnette!!! The above section in Chinese is also for you!!!
Haha...
Don't be too upset too!!

=SmileX=
Am I losing my concentration??

心理情绪 不能控制
过去画面 不断浮现
其实事实 摆在眼前

我疯了
自命清高 是我的弱点
喜欢幻想 是我的缺点
不切实际 是我的致命伤

不喜欢悬疑
不喜欢猜测
不喜欢不确定
不喜欢不被喜欢

喜欢被呵护
喜欢被珍惜
喜欢被喜欢
喜欢被我喜欢的人喜欢

这就是幻想
因为它不曾发生
也许不会发生

我尝试不去想
任性的我放不开
固执的我就是一直想
脑海不断出现我和“他”的画面

不要问我他是谁
我也不知道

我只觉得很内疚
自己怎么会这样？

=SmileX=
内疚的我只会一直内疚下去。。。

Gosh...
I am SO FREAKING bored can??!!!
I decided to blog....
Although I did so less than 24 hours ago...
Haha...
Ok..
Lame...

Slept at 1 this morning...
Woke up at 9...
Why??
I went to watch Harry Potter....
I won't say it was super nice...
It was ok...
Because it's Harry Potter...

But I think the climax was TOO short....
And they cut too much of the storyline...
I don't mind sitting there for another half and hour to see a more exciting storyline...
Haha...
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Gosh...
I am feeling so damn guilty...
Like SO...
Haiz...
I don't know how to describe...
This enormous guilt is just too huge and too much for me to handle...
ARGH..!!
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So many things to do....
Not that I have no time...
I have NO FEEL....
Really no feel.....
Let me tell you what I have on hand...

1)Endless homework....
2)Endless Japanese Languages classes to catch up....
3)Endless paperwork etc at work...
4)Endless rubbish to clear at home...
5)Endless shows to watch...
6)Find time to learn driving...

=SmileX=
I feel guilty... and I can't do anything to make the feeling go away...

Today was reportage video filming...
AT WOODLANDS AGAIN..!!!
Ms Joycelyn must be SO happy again...

Today's video was about trial biking...
Very exciting.!!
But very dangerous!!
The guys who helped us with the filming are like damn cool la~~
Super li hai..!!

Haha...

Can't wait to see the final product...
But before that...
I will have to put in my Heart and Soul to my editing process...
I will girls..!!!
It's to repay for the previous one...
Seriously the Narrative sucked...
Haha...

But I will not let history repeat itself..!!

I don't know if the guys will read this...
but I still want to say...


I am tired....
But I think the bikers must be even more tired...!!

Off to watch tv..!!

=SmileX=
Will things work out the way I want them to?

I thought the mood swing was gone...
Now it's back...
Damn it...

Feeling super emotionally unstable now...
Gosh...
Why doesn't it just leave me?!

=SmileX=
It's like sitting on a swing... Going up and down....

Haha...
Today was 专业型呈现
Well...
My group didn't get the best score...
But I don't care...
Because I know I put into my utmost efforts into it..!!
=P

Haha...
We all had to dress up like super formally...
Sorry guys...
Everyone used my camera to take pictures...
But somehow some of the pics turned out blur...
Sorry..!!!
I aso dunno what happened....

Here are some of the pics me and my friends took..!!








Did another 心理测验...
Also is Maggie give me the link de...
Haha..
Also SO accurate la~~~
I think my character is easily tested...
Haha

你的性格多變，
喜歡新奇而有變化的事物，
不安於現狀，
喜歡旅行，
其實你是個十分認真的人，
儘管往往表現出無所謂或裝瘋賣傻的行為。(haha...!! Saying I crazy...)
對於規範並不會完全遵守甚至會勇於提出質疑，
不喜歡成為眾人目光之所在，
但還是會願意對團體貢獻出自己最大的力量！(So true can??)
你往往不必過度追求或注意，
身旁就有很多的異性朋友，
通常大夥兒就像哥兒們似的混的很熟，
真正的愛情反而不易遇得，(doesn't sound like a good thing...hmm..)
好奇性高的個性讓你往往能冷靜的做下判斷與思考，
但是要注意呦！
一但遇到心有所屬者，
一定要定下心來認真經營，
男孩子也是和女生一樣執著而在乎的呢！^^
This is the link...
Go try it..!!
http://www.fg.tp.edu.tw/~d1351935/php-4.htm


Haha...
That's all..!!

=SmileX=
Enjoying life!!

做不完的功课
真的压得我喘不过气
做不完的commitments
有时候让我很想哭
尤其是得不到别人的体谅及谅解的时候
还有别人放我飞机的时候
会觉得。。。怎么这样！

有时很想放声大哭
什么都不做、
什么都不想。
只想一直睡觉
忘记我的泪
忘记我的疲倦
忘记我的好多好多事情

我有好多东西要做
可是时间好像永远不够用
力不从心的感觉吞噬了我
让我什么都做不好
什么都做不到
这种感觉很可怕
会让我乱了方寸
让我跌入不知所措的陷阱

有时候觉得很寂寞
很lost
可是我是恢复力超强的人


=SmileX=
累了，记得往前看。。。
想哭，记得往天上看。。。

It's raining outside now...
Haha...
Like FINALLY...
The weather recently is CRAZILY HOT..!!!!!!!!

Video today ended execptionally early for me...
It was the CAMERA TEST...!!!
Haha..
So exciting...
I could have gotten full marks la~~~
Never mind....
It's over..!!

Editing test next week....!!
Haha...
Looking forward to it...
I like such tests....
No need to study....
Because it's testing IT and electronics...
Which happens to be my forte..!!
Haha....

I am supposed to be doing Danny Yeo's presentation slides...
Here I am....
BLOGGING..!!
Gosh...
Seriously no feel...

10% of me feels like lying down...
20% of me is telling me to go STUDY JAP..!!
30% of me wants to go eat ice cream....
39% of me wants to watch tv..!!!
1% of tells me to start doing work..!!!

ARGH...
Off to find my "feel"...
BYE...

=SmileX=
I feel happy....

Monday...
The day for Singing group...
But...
我亲爱的“孩子们”好多都没来啊！
If I said I am not disappointed, I am LYING...
I am disappointed...
You can add a "very" to that sentence....

But at least those who came who enthu...
So Ok la...
可能是我要求太高了吧？

Anyway... It's over...
Singing group next week again..
Shall see how it goes...

Maggie shared with me this website...
http://www.211w.com/birthday/

I would say it's accurate...
At least for me it is.!

3月14日 现代爱因斯坦

有利用与他人的相处之道来了解自己的倾向

在家庭中或社会上的地位对他们而言是非常重要的，因为这样的地位证明了他们丰在的价值，而这也是他们生活的重心 (SUPER accurate..!!!)

原本就很容易改变看法的缘故吧，即使他们曾经坚信某种人生的大原则，但如果遇到环境上的重大变化时，他们还是会视情况去调整自己。 (You mean I will marry a westerner??? Haha... Joke from Alfred's class..)

他们对人际关系很有兴趣，非常关切身边的日常琐事

他们对自己的理念往往不是那么笃定，所以，有可能会穷毕生之力与自己的原则或立场进行一场拉距战 (so sad la~~~)

他们喜欢保持独立的感觉，很有幽默感，又能勇敢而热切地表达想法，只是，在表达自己的真感情时，却往往过于小心了。(Haha... Oops..!)

他们也不是那种能在一开始就去参与团体活动的积极分子 (haha... How more true?? I told you I am introvert de... Haha..)

不要让别人误以为自己是那种高傲或冷漠的人。 (Am I??? Gosh... Haiz...)

3月14日出生的人在私下很开放，接受度高而且又有一颗包容的心，因为他们认为每一个人都有对的一面，因此每一个人的意见都应该被重视。 (YUP YUP...!! That's me..!!)

他们也最好能了解人是有特殊见解、感受的独特个体。 (So proud of myself..!! haha)

能够很快地从人生的打击中痊愈。 (Haha... So true....)

很自然地会不断地付出

他们是以家庭为重心的人，所以会关切家中成员的健康，因此平常对医学或治疗方面的知识便很有兴趣。 (Haha..!!)

Gosh... I love the sentence below..!!!

静思语
我们相似却又有着如天壤之别的差异。

优点
包容、有弹性、深情。

缺点
犹豫不决、自大自满、缺乏定性。

Haha...
Ya.. I AM fickle...
Haha...

That's all...
I am tired...

=SmileX=
我们相似却又有着如天壤之别的差异。

If you know me...
You should be quite used to me saying
"I need to go office today."
"I need to go work."

Such statements...
So how does my office table look like?
Hhaa...

I worked for this table...
Can you believe there was a time I didn't have a table?!
Haha...

Now this table is MINE...
Haha...



The standard TWO computers...
Haha..
1 for work...
1 for entertainment...
Hahahaha....



I love my NEW CALCULATOR....
My sis bought it for me...
Haha....
So cool la~~~



Beloved Hello Kitties....
Haha....
I love Hello Kitty..!



And of course....
I need food to motivate me to work...!!
wahahaha...
It's MY PERSONAL PANTRY...
Haha...


That's all for today's "eat snake" session...
Back to work!
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Feel so empty today...
Nobody for me to look at...
Haha

=SmileX=
I think most guys look nicer in black tops... =P

Haha...
Learnt a new phrase today...
"NATO"

"No Action, Talk Only"...
Haha..

I love the phrase...


Haven't been updating...
Haha...
I also don't know why...
Almost forgot I have a blog...
Haha....

Went to National Museum on Monday...
Saw the history of Singapore exhibit...
NICE..!!!

If you have time...
GO SEE..!!!

Quite different from the normal exhibitions....
Quite an experience....
Haha...

Introduce a few nice songs to you....

Alin - 爱，请问怎么走
Alin - 位置
Alicia Keys - If I ain't got you
庭竹 - 现在的你
柯有伦 - 两败俱伤

very nice songs..!!!

Going back to watch my 9 o'clock show...
《幸运星》
Super nice..!!!!

=SmileX=
Enjoying life......

人生是由无数的选择拼奏而成的
快乐、悲伤
生气、忍耐
乐观、悲观
都是可以选择的

又有谁真的明白？
悲伤的时候，总觉得是周围的人、事、物造成
快乐的时候，总觉得时间过得很快，忘记珍惜

人的矛盾。

现在的悲伤，是之前快乐的惩罚？
快乐之后，悲伤好像几乎是自然
这就是交换？

有快乐就有悲伤
就像地球永远都有两极

有多快乐就有多伤心
是吗？

这就是人生？
至少我的是如此。

=SmileX=
充满矛盾的人生，就是我的人生

Screwed up at work today...
Screwed up BIG time...
Feeling super guilty...

Especially when my Mummy doesn't scold me...
It only makes me feel more guilty....

This makes me no different from those people in the office who irritates my Mummy....

I don't want to be like them...
I want to be my Mummy's good assistant...

Really...

But my memory is failing me...
I really can't seem to remember alot of things...

I will try harder....
I will.

=SmileX=
Why give your 50% when you can give more than that?

Finally...
3 tests settled...

1) Contemporary Chinese test...
2) Global Issues MCQ Test...
3) Consecutive Interpretatio Mock Test...

Haha...
I feel so much more relaxed now...

Left with New Media (Photography) E journal 2 due on wed...
And Global Issues Term paper due on 16/7/07...
And Reportage video shooting and editing...

And of course many many others that have yet to come...
Haha...

It's stressful and tiring...
But I am happy...
I am enjoying it...
Because I chose it..

=SmileX=
Cannot "eat snake" too long ah...