我告诉我自己，是时候长大了。

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不可以再有幼稚的想法。

有时觉得自己很活该，自讨苦吃。
明明知道逃避之后，路会更难走，我偏要逃。
怎么都开心不起来。
今天和明天，整天呆在家里，哪里都不去。
想找回以前那种在家“烂”的感觉，
可是好像好遥远，好像已经忘记了无所事事的感觉。

越想让时间充实，反而越空虚。



家里不是没有人，只是不想接触。
不想讲话，更不想踏出房门。
这是很不健康的。
整天起床、吃饭、看电视、玩电脑、读书，就过了。
回头想想，好像什么都没有做到。
好空虚。

想用这两天，让自己清醒，认清自己的人生。
可是，越想越沮丧、越想越害怕。
我们之间，不知从何时开始，对话，就只有工作。
要做什么，要注意什么都是你每天对我说的话。
对于我的生活，你慢慢变得漠不关心。
应该是从假期开始时，开始的。



一直觉得自己的起跑点和别人的不同，
一直觉得不怎么样，直到最近，才发现我的不同。

这种感觉很可怕，让我惧怕未来的一切。
好孤单。

“高处不胜寒”



以为已经走了很远，才发现一切都是幻觉。
我仍然踏不出第一步。
还是没有办法想象未来。



这一切都是我活该。
从一开始，我就没有抗拒过，
从来没有对你们说过“不”。
所以你们把我当理所当然，
从而产生了超高标准。

我好累，又有谁知道？
我好孤单，又有谁了解？
我好害怕，又有谁陪我？



我想和你说的，可是你一定又会说
“你的想法太自我为中心了，想宽一点，做人不可以那么自私的”

这就是把太多事情强加在自己身上的后果。



可是，人生只有一次，
与其选择不开心，成天把自己埋在沮丧中，
不如看开一些，不要转牛角尖，活得轻松一些吧！
我会试着这样做！

毕竟，收得云开见月明。
我期待赶快看到月亮。



感觉有点人格分裂，
跳tone有点快，没办法。
我是典型乐观派悲观主义者。

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图片摘自
杨君伟写的



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最近很爱哭。

I don't know if you know..
There was this very big HooHa about the "I'm not a plastic bag" bag?





Ya...
My crazy sister bought it...
Haha

I almost travelled the WHOLE PIE today...
Some pictures I took on the way...

















My favourites..







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I got over it because I figured it out.
It's not the first time you said such things.
And I doubt it's going to be the last.

We have an undeniable relationship.
I can only accept you for who you are.

我不喜欢自己的情绪被别人控制。

I am trying hard to improve my EQ.

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I am starting to be afraid of my future.

Haha..
I haven't updated for quite a few days..
So here goes.!

My trip to Shenton way during working hours..
I felt totally like a tourist that day..
I was taking pictures like I have never been there.!





Show you something interesting...

They look normal rite??



The inside of the lift...
Find anything wrong??



Take a closer look...



HAHA...
Those are ALL the buttons in the lift...

Outside the lift....



Press the floor you want to go...



They tell you to proceed to the respective lift..



Press the wrong/invalid number...
This is what you get...



HAHA...
Cute right??
But you can't change your mind...

I love this place...



Very pretty lobby...





Underpass @ Fullerton..









Finally...
LUNCH...
At China Square basement there...
The Japanese food is WOOHOO..!!!
Nice!!
おいしいですね！



Time for some heritage feel...











Watched Hairspray..!!
Very nice and funny..!!
Go Watch!!!

Been meeting Auntie Lynnette quite often..
HAHA..
Stop cooping yourself yourself at home AH!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
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Thanks for making me confused again..

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Barney. Like WTH.

It's only the beginning of the day.
And I am already feeling the difference.
The difference of you not being here.
The things around me seemed to feel it too.
The radio kept playing my favourite song.
It's just, unbearable.
Perhaps it's just a habit?

I can't bear to look at the date today.
Simply reminds me you are gone.
A date I have been staring at everyday,
For the past 1 month.
I feel somewhat empty.
I told myself to brace up.
To push you out of my mind
I will try, I promise.
I will try hard to minimise the effects.


You looked forward to this day.
I hope you are happy now.
Take care of yourself ya?

I wanted so much to sms you.
But I decided not to.
Something told me I should not.

I just hope that I am not forgotten.
Will you forget me?
I know I am only one of the many contacts in your phone.
I still hope you will think of me.





So, this is how it feels to be affected by a dream.


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I don't like being emotional too. But I can't help it.

I think the continuous lack of sleep is taking effect..
I just can't seem to get enough sleep..
TIRED, is all I can say...
And I really am...
My eyes are really dry..
And they are hurting...


Went with Mummy to Shenton Way today.
I felt like a tourist snapping pictures here and there.
Will post them up soon.
I haven't transferred them..


I feel a sudden NEED to be fascinated..
I am feeling bored..
I want to go overseas..

Wonder when I will be able to??
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I hope I will be able to get over you.
Bye Bye.

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Bye. Take Care. Though you will not see this.

I am really tired..
I have started my 2 months holiday.
Which means I am starting my 2 months working at the office..
I am super tired..

As per always.
There is nothing to say about work..
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I don't know.
My friend says it's crazy to wait 2 years.
But I am willing to.
If you ask.

Call me stubborn if you must.
I won't deny.

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I don't know why, I just don't want to give up yet.

Went to see fireworks with Joycelyn, Libing, Jiayi and Li Wen today...
I just SO simply love it..
Haha..

Went for a light dinner at New York New York...

What's up with MS JOYCELYN's FACE??!!!



Haha..

Time for a NORMAL one..



Libing very kindly brought along 4 cupcakes for the 4 of us..
And she MADE SURE ALL of us finished it..
HAHA...

Can you see the efforts Li Wen is putting in??



HAHA..
And this is the end product of mine, Joycelyn's and Jia Yi's.







Went to the empty space outside Esplanade..
Waited for an HOUR for the fireworks to start...

Typical night scenery of Singapore..



I turned the world black and white.



US...







Time for the fireworks...
I didn't take many nice ones...
Because there was simply TOO much smoke around..












Saw a couple coming together today..
Haha..
Happy for them!!
Haiz...
This is the time I feel I WANT a boyfriend badly...
How nice it would be if I am watching the fireworks with someone I call my "boyfriend"
Haiz..
BUT
No matter what..
I still love fireworks just as much...!!
HAHA

I will upload the videos another day...
It's taking too long..

I reached home at 11.40.
And my parents are freaking pissed...
Like.....OOOPS..
Haha..

Then now I shall officially announce that
I HAVE A HOME CURFEW OF 11PM!!
Haha..

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I don't know what is in that brain of yours