This is the 100th post.
Never thought it would be a sad one.
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Nothing I do will ever be enough to you.
No matter how much hard work I put in,
I will never pass, in your eyes.
It will never be enough.
Is it because of the sky high expectations?
Sorry, I can't meet them.
A simple statement is enough to hurt me deep down.
I can't get over it.
I am tearing.
I am hurt.
By one of my dearest kin.
That's the worst way to get hurt.
Don't you get it?
I am still a student.
Give me some time to fit in will you?
I told myself many times to face the fact.
I have a company to hold in future.
But I am not ready yet.
I still have many other things I want to do.
I just don't say it to you,
Doesn't mean I don't have dreams.
If I can help you, I will.
But give me time.
I am still young.
I haven't even graduate.
I am reporting to work during my holidays.
While my friends are enjoying their time.
It's just.... my life.
I don't hate it.
But I detest the fact that what I am doing is not recognised.
It's the most hurtful fact.
Don't force me.
I can't take it.
I am hurt.
Very.
=SmileX=
这就是我的死穴。
February 2007
