I thought things were going to be ok.
Yeah. That was what I thought.

But today, emptiness filled up everywhere.
My mind was full yet empty.
Full of questions, empty of thoughts.
Laughed hard. Laughed lots.
But was it true?

I guess I haven't gotten over it totally.

只要是和你有关的，不论是事物、歌曲、情节，
都会让我鸡皮疙瘩掉满地。
第一次那么害怕鸡皮疙瘩。
让我觉得好孤独、好无助。
就像突然失去了很重要的东西，
少了我的精神支柱，全身无力。

我会把我们短短的回忆好好地收起来。
那些因为你而快乐、因为你而伤心、因为你而担心。
短期内不会去碰它，因为我怕会痛。
不想看见你也不想收到你的消息，
反正我们的生活圈子没有交叉点。

我需要时间。
希望有一天，在路上碰到，我可以微笑着对你说"Hi"

=SmileX=
I need time to get over this. Till then..

寂静的夜，我勇敢地说了
换回了你真诚的回答
一个我一直不愿意面对的现实，始终到来了
美丽的梦，残酷地被你踩碎了。
心理感觉有点空虚，但这是个过渡期，我会恢复的。


心里缺的那一块，我找得回吗？

从你那里听到了答案，
虽然不是我想要的，
可是，最起码我不需要再自我催眠。



再见了，我要回到我的世界，那个没有你的世界。

我应该很难再有勇气爱上别人了。

单恋永远是痛苦的。How true.
感情泛滥，自作多情永远是我的弱点。


After all the struggling and convincing I told myself to hold on tight,
And not to let go till you tell me to，
You still made me let go.
How ironic.
Today is the day eh?
That everything comes to an end?
Yah, I guess so.

All my courage has been drained.
What I need now is a strong and reliable shoulder for me to cry on.
Maybe I won't cry. I don't know.
A shoulder may not be right, I think a wall will do the job just as well.

Emptiness is filling up my little bubble.
Like a child who got lost in a shopping centre.
Lost for directions.
To move on blindly is the only solution.
Although I know it will hurt.

2 months and 8 days,
Been there, high up on the top, came back down, there deep under.
All sorts of injuries suffered.
I starting to wonder what made me hold on.

What I wanted was an answer.
Since I got it, what I want now is a clear END.



It's the end.
Unless a miracle happens but I know miracles don't happen to me.


This is the last thing I will say to you.


Take Care.






I'm back. Alone.


=SmileX=
我还没有尝试到爱情的甜蜜，就先被爱情伤得遍体鳞伤。

Hehe.. I am here again..

Yup. As you may have guessed. It's working hours now.
12pm to be exact. And YES I am slacking..

Not really actually I am taking a break..
Too much work and stress recently..
Hehe...

Pictures??

They are purely random.

Forgive me..
HAHA

I think my brother is either crazy or CRAZY!
Those are HIS legs for your information..



Ever expanding BOOK collection..
HEHE..



My family's car..



Another car in our office carpark..



The Giant and Elf..



HAHAHAHAHAHA.. Told you it was random!

Went out with Lynnette on Friday...
Just for dinner actually..
Haha



And yes I was in pink that day.

I am trying hard to increase the colours I have in my wardrobe..
hahahaha..

She was attempting to squeeze her head...



The jacket is FREAKING expensive...



But of course it's NICE.
And I didn't buy it..
So it makes it just NICER!

HAHAHA

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Life's been kinda monotonous..
But I guess it's time to slow down the ever increasing pace of the world.
I won't say life's been an enjoyment.
But I don't detest it that much anymore.

Finding happiness in small little issues..
Fascinate yourself with the most ordinary things you never observed.

Simplicity does it all，right?

终于跨出第一步，
忘记你的一切的第一步
不那么在乎你的第一步
开始珍惜所有的第一步
努力向前前进的第一步
学着更爱自己的第一步

不想再站在原点，彷徨地望着前方。
想独自继续向前，微笑着回忆从前。

=SmileX=
人生哲学。

Haha..

So long never update again..
See?
Got people say my blog wordy again..
Haha..

I lazy to upload photos ma..
Hehe..
Okok.. So now.. I shall uploads LOTS of pictures ok?

You know la~~
Such things must have "feel" then can do...
HEHE..

Intercontinental Hotel..
I didn't go there for any purpose.
The simple reason is because our car was parked below at the carpark and we had to walk thru the hotel to go into bugis junction..



Got "feel" right?





Nice chandeliers..







Brother acting stupid...





Bugis Junction..



Lunch..!!

















Hehe...
Drooling already??!!
HAHAHAHA...
It's at the Wong Kok Char Chan Teng (Forgot le) at Bugis Junction...

Ok.. I shall upload the other pictures tomorrow...
I took super long to upload these can???
Tired already...

=SmileX=
Can I continue to trust you and hold on?

What am I doing?
What do I really like and enjoy doing?
What am I going to be in future?
Why am I studying all these?
Is it revelant?
Will I like my job in future?


Have these questions ever popped up in your mind?

To me, it seems that they have all been answered.
Yet I yearn to find my truthful answers to them.
Things have seemed to be settled and decided.
I accepted them gracefully, hoping to do my part.

"Work hard, do your best"
I tell myself. Yet the hardest has yet to be overcomed.
How can I take the step?
The step that can stop my mind from straying off and staying on the right track?

I want to prove myself to be a good worker.
Yet all the temptations are overwhelming.
Absorbed in my own world, I lost my soul.

Finding back my soul and rearranging my dreams shall be my greatest goals.

=SmileX=
It's time to start thinking about the future...

Am at my auntie's house now..
Staying over at her house alone..
Because my little cousin is very sick..
And my uncle went back to KL..
So I had to stay to help her look after her son..

I was kind of reluctant at first..
But..
Haiz..
She also very poor thing..
The son is like throwing tantrum for don't know what reason..

Studying hard to catch up my japanese lessons!!
Exams coming soon!
ARGH!!!

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GREAT. HE and SHE.
What a good combination.
I am speechless.
The long distance HE was willing to travel for HER.
The late going home HE was willing to because of HER.

Everything around me is saying "give him up".
I think I am going to have a nightmare tonight..
Of HIM AND HER..

Thinking too much about it..
Tsk tsk tsk..
How unhealthy..

=SmileX=
In front of you but you have no idea that I like you..

Those darn eyebags are back...
I don't know why...
But I'm sure they will be gone before I know it..
They shouldn't exist in the first place...

I am tired..
But I have problems sleeping..
I don't know why...

I have pictures to upload.
I will do it some other day...
No "feel"
HAHAHA

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I thought I was taking a big step forward...
How would I know I was actually pushing myself into "no return".

我的积极和关心，只能够换回你的冷漠
Thanks ah.!
What a NICE reply.
What a NICE way to start my day for me.

说没有女朋友，但不代表你没有喜欢的人对吧。
你有喜欢的人，但那人不是我。
希望“她”也是喜欢你的吧。。。

第一次那么拼命地追，你却恨不得拼命地逃。

What's meant to be will always be..
But I am seriously running out of patience...

你的世界，我进不去，却又不想退出。

=SmileX=
多少次我告诉自己“算了”，但倔强的我始终做不到。。

Oops..
I have not been updating regularly..
Haha..
I think it's ok la~~
Still not too bad.
These few days are totally crazy.
All the mood swings are "swinging" so seriously that I think I will be driven mad by myself...
I even have the feeling that I will have 人格分裂...
HAHA.. Like WTH..

Anyway.
Because we are currently moving office, (moving to Jurong)
We spent a few hours packing everything..
It's crazy. Because I am allergic to dust..
Now my throat has been itching since then..
ARGH!!
It feels worst than me eating crabs..
So irritating...




I found a SHOCKING thing...



I AM LOSING MY ABILITY TO SING...
haiz....
I don't know what is happening to me...

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Seriously, do I look like a good entertainment?
It's not the first time I have been treated like that.
When you are bored, you think of me.
When you are not, I am nowhere to be found.
WTH..!!!
Anyway.. I shall not bury myself in unhappiness.

When I wanted to talk to someone so badly...
Someone talked.
But that someone left me stranded there, all by myself..
So suddenly that I felt lost..

How ironic.

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Only now do I realise how difficult it is to get your work recognised..
It took me very long to realise that you will never be praised for everything you do.

"People will never remember what good you have done,
But they will remember what you did wrongly,
Forever."

How true.

=SmileX=
单纯一点是好的，可以活得快乐些。

I know I haven't updated for a long time..
So, let me tell you what has happened in my life for the past few days..

1) I passed my Driving Basic Theory Test and got my Provisional Driving License (PDL), which means I can officially start my practical lessons.! HAHAHAHA

2) Went to Jurong East Library to study with Yi Xian and Pei Shan. Has been a LONG time since I went... What a nice feeling... Had a nice time chatting and laughing with them... hehe..

3) Went for my Grandfather's birthday celebration dinner at night... Nothing special. As usual, someone I detest was there, which was totally disturbing to me..

4) Sunday, I got a new handphone.. WAHAHA... Nokia 5700.. It's not totally good. But I think it's pretty, because I got the red one...

5) I am super broke. Don't know what happened to my finances, seems that funds are depleting faster than they are coming in...

Lynnette and Joycelyn went for interviews.. GOOD LUCK girls!!

Supposed shopping trip tomorrow..
FINALLY!!!
HAHA....

Last but not least....

=SmileX=
I don't want to wallow in misery anymore.