I have already reached the stage whereby I can ignore whatever negative comments from anyone..
Anyone but my family.
I mean they are the ones who are supposed to be on my side,
Encouraging me on isn't it?
I know I am still new in the line
And everything is definitely NEW to me.
I am feeling insecure already, alright?
Stop giving me the feeling that you are looking down on me.
It totally puts me down.
It really does.
It just puts off whatever sparks or tiny fire I managed to build up over the whole period of time.
I am discouraged and depressed because of your comments and the way you look at me.
Because it just simply shows how much you believe and trust me.
All the more,
I am going to prove myself to you.
You are the last person I'd ever want to look down on me.
Seriously, trust your daughter's abilities will you?
=SmileX=
I am already trying hard. CAN'T YOU SEE??!!
February 2007