OK. My days have been incredibly LONG~~~
Basically, it's school-office(SDB)-office(DPA)..
It's crazy.
I'm out of the house in the morning and back only after 11pm..
CRAZY!!!
HAHA.
But ok la. I'm enjoying it.

I know I have lots of things to upload. But no time no feel no pictures.
Haha..

So go on waiting...

Lastly, I just want to say.
我不是落魄公主。
因为我不是公主。
Haha..

=SmileX=
I just want some sleep.... hehe.

Ok..
I know I have not updated..
In fact, I haven't even been ONLINE for a few days.
I am so tired.!
We have been movfing office for the past few days..
Yet to complete Modern Literature readings.
Wonder when am I going to finish?!
I have a presentation on THURSDAY.!
Gosh.!

I know it's time for some pictures, but pardon me.
Haven't had time to upload photos from my camera..
Will update about the new office soon.!
Moving to a new office is not nice...
Because it's tiring..
But it's FUN.
Haha..
Because you have a chance to rearrange your things..
Hehe..

The youngest guy in our office is now sitting next to me..
But I am SUPER far from my Mum...
*sigh*
SO FAR~~~~~~

Let's just settle for some random pictures first...

The bananas in class...



Me and my brother...
HAHA..
The pictures says it all..!








I SUPER ULTRA PISSED with the teacher can?!
Super biased.
WTH.!
To think that I put in SOOOOO many good words for the teacher before?!
GOSH.
I MUST HAVE BEEN BLIND.
I AM SO DAMN ULTRA PISSED OFF.
(use Lynnette's phrase)
BLOODY SHIT.

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It's saturday.
看不见你的时候，
还是会想你在哪里、会想你是否会想我？

It's probably because you are the only option.

=SmileX=
I just want to get my work DONE.

Sleep is never enough right?
Ever since the tiring weekend, I just can't seem to get ENOUGH sleep..
Tsk tsk~~
This is bad...

Was supposed to meet Yi Xian, Xiao Xian and Pei Shan at Orchard..
But due to the FACT that I have too many things on hand,
I decided to give it a miss..
So sad la...
So long never see them le.!
But we will be meeting quite often...
Haha..

Lesson today is BLOODY BORING CAN?!
Gosh..
But I still love the teacher la~!

Some irritants ought to just shut up and stay aside.
Freaking irritating can?!
Just because you WANT something, doesn't mean everyone have to GIVE it to you.!
Get your facts right man.!
We were given the right to choose.!

Aiya..
Shit-y irritants..

I need to start studying again.....
Haiz...
When am I going to finish reading the bloodily long story?!
140 pages of A4 paper.!

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POP means you have a chance to let your "loved" ones to see you...
Your favourite right? Showing off..
Haha..
Afterwhich, you will have 10 days off..
You should be super happy right?
You are forever looking forward to weekends to book out...
Good for you lo..
You will be online very often I guess?
Perhaps not, you will be to pre-occupied by "her".
Fine.

才发现，有没有你都一样。
我一样会开心、会伤心。
我一样会生病、会不舒服。
我一样会忙碌、会偶尔寂寞。

只是少了一个让我觉得自己很重要的人。
（但也有可能是我想太多，误解了你）

相信你没有我，也一样。
生活不会有什么不同。

也或许你早已忘记我的存在。

我们之间还剩下什么？

每个周末看你有没有 online，只有这样。



From Deviantart by Zendar.
=SmileX=
Bloody lots of things to do~~~!

Just a quick one on my "fruitful" weekend.
I spent two thirds of it SLEEPING.
I woke up at 3.47pm today.!
The first impression when I saw the time on my phone?
"Aiyo, my phone clock spoil already..!"
HAHAHAHAHA

So that's how I spent my weekend..
I read some Modern Literature...
But I did no other HOMEWORK.
ARGH.!

Ok.
I will so them TOMORROW.!
I WILL.
Hmm...

Off to bed~~

=SmileX=
Sleep....... ZZZzzzZZZzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ........

Now let me tell you more about my totally "EXCITING" Friday.

As I was saying in my previous post, Friday is yet another "working day".
So, I went to the office at 10++ because Mummy and Dad came home only at 4am in the morning!
Why?
Because there is a new project that is supposed to be finished by MONDAY.
Super rush.!

Ok, so I went to the office..
Did some document scanning and filing and such..
I was NOT feeling OK at all.!
Because something was wrong somewhere in my body.
But I couldn't say WHAT.
That's what totally spoilt my mood.
I just totally couldn't smile, let alone talk.

It felt like 胃涨风 you know?
Super bloated, so much so that you would want to VOMIT.
And yes..
I did. 3times.! So scary.!
But I was thinking I would be able to go home around midnight or something.
After we complete the project...
BUT.!

The worst part?
I left office only at 7.30am on SATURDAY MORNING.
The sun was already out.! Shining so brightly~~!
GOSH.

I was practically swallowing all the medicine I know will help throughout the night(morning)..
But I still didn't feel well.
But I think it's mostly because of the lack of sleep.

I slept from 8am to 5.30pm..
So, I wasted one WHOLE saturday SLEEPING.
How nice~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
But at least I feel much better now..

Ok. I need to go study and do my homework.!!

Tada~~

=SmileX=
I hate getting sick now. It's makes me feel helpless. And I don't like that.

I just realised I haven't updated for a few days...
*Oops*
Ok..
A quick one..
Erm..

Tuesday
Lessons were till 11.
Went to the office..(as usual)
And went to watch 《侠女》 at the National Museum..
It was supposed to start at 7.30 (well.. it did.) BUT
WHO KNEW IT WAS GOING TO LAST FOR 3 HOURS??!!!!
Plus another hour of "talk cock session"
We all left at 11.30pm.!
Luckily Mummy and Dad came to pick me..

Fortunately, lesson tomorrow is cancelled.!
WAHAHAHAHA...

Wednesday?
Erm..
Lessons ended at 11+.
Went to the library and lunch-ed with Joycelyn at IMM.
Bought stationeries for the office, and off to the office!
WHO KNEW I WAS GOING TO BE THERE TILL 10.30!!!
*sigh*
Mummy and I managed to catch a cab only at 11pm..
Reached home super late.
By the time I finish printing the modern literature things?
I was way TOO tired to read them.!
Sorry Nan Lao Shi..!!
I will read them this weekend..!!

Today was just lessons..
Reached home at 6.
Switched on the tv and then I realised,
It's been a LONG time since I had time to sit in front of the tv and do nothing but channel-surfing..
*sigh*

Nevermind..
Pictures of the National Museum.!















Those pretty clouds I saw on Tuesday..






Tomorrow's work again..
*sigh*
I know. It's not surprising. I knew it was coming.
Although the small tiny weeny bit of me was trying to be funny..
Trying to think of the various excuses to have a day to myself.

But the timing is just wrong I guess?
The office is in a chaotic mess now.
Mummy said "please". Gosh. What more can I say.?

Nevermind.
Can go print literature notes at the same time..

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Sometimes I really feel like flaring up.
Maybe because I am bottling up too much anger recently.
Sometimes I just feel like screaming.
Maybe because I have been too nice and have been taken for granted.

Well, I am a human too.
A human with serious mood swings.
I get tired, I get upset, I get agitated, I get impatient too.!

I just don't know how to express them.
And I don't want people to think that I do nothing other than just purely complaining and whining about how tiring my life is.
I don't want to be taken as such a person.
Because I am not.!

Sometimes I just feel that I don't fit in anywhere.


因为别人不吝啬于付出与包容，并不代表接受你的任性和一切。
不管做什么都要有个底限，不要太过分。

做人不要太贪心，不可以只要别人对自己单方面的付出。

Haiz..
Today is super duper ultra cannot make it de BORING can?!
I was TOTALLY dozing off in class....
ZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ...
HAHA...
But in order not to ruin my perfect record of NOT sleeping during lessons,
I STAYED AWAKE..
ARGH.

Yesterday was OH YEE LU's piano performance...

It was good la~!
I seriously want to upload the video.
But photobucket is a little crazy..
Shall do it tomorrow.


Did a test I saw somewhere...
It's about...My love life?!
Haha..

Here's what it says...
"You're easy going about who you're with, as long as they love you back."
Haha. True.!
I don't have high standards..
Not like someone~~~
*cough cough*

"Getting over a break-up doesn't take long. Easy come, easy go."
Nah~
Totally untrue..
I am still trying-in-progress.
If I'm not wrong, the previous one took 1 and a half yr?
HAHA.
Aiya~ Whatever.!

I've always been a HOROSCOPE fan..
If you have the November issue of Seventeen,
Flip to the horoscop page. Look at Pisces.
Tsk tsk~~

"When the moon is new on Nov 9, you'll have
a crush on a guy with a bad-boy rep."
WTH~~~~ -_-

"The feelings will be mutual"
Show it to me man.! Which part?!

"After a few emails, you'll discover that his imange doesn't
reflect his true personality. He's actually a total sweetie!"
FIRST, WHO THE HELL STILL COMMUNICATES THRU EMAILS??!!!
Next... Where is the GUY???!!!

HAHAHA.
Ok fine.
I am just bloody tired and totally out of my mind.
I bought a new organiser..
Hehehe..
Within my budget.
And I love it.! (NOW.)
Wahaha..

Going to National Museum to watch Movie tomorrow with Ray..
Gosh~~
It had better be NICE.

=SmileX=
I am just super duper ultra cannot make it de TIRED.

Today is a BORING day.
What did I do?
NOTHING.
That's it.
It rounds up the whole day..

The only good thing happened was that I had the BEST sleep I had in AGES..
Hehehe..
It was still interrupted..
But it was much better.!
I woke up at 12.45pm...
Hehehehehehe...

Was supposed to do homework today...
Well, at least I planned to!
But of course..
*cough cough*
Hehe...
I will give it a try again tomorrow.!

Going for a haircut tomorrow..
It had better turn out ok..
Days are getting bloody hot.!
ARGH.!

Am still not feeling very well..
Going to sleep soon.!

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When was the last time we talked?
It really was the last right?

I guess your life is better?
Without me.

Fine.
If you are reading this,
All the best.
I think your "hell week" should be coming soon..
Take care.

=SmileX=
I am bored.

It's Friday again..
It's the don't know no. what post with this title already...
Hehehehe..
Forgive me for my lack of creativity..
But I always have the same thoughts when it's FRIDAY...
Haha..

Hmm..
Lesson today was just Asian Cinema from 2-6pm..
I don't know if I should be happy or upset about this module..
It's not exciting, neither is it super uninteresting...
So ya..

Watched a Chinese movie today..
Not bad...
Many people cried (at least teared)..
Well, I didn't.
Let me repeat this again, it's not because I am unfeeling.
I just don't see a need to.
I prefer to cry when I am alone.

Went to join Joycelyn and her friends at the BBQ pit later at night..
They were a fun bunch of people..
Haha..

Ok. After a few posts of emo-ing..
Let's have some time for some pictures.!

My auntie bought us Donut Factory!!!







She loves buying food for us...
Must be because we are too lovable..
Hehehehe..

The day was so much more beautiful with them...



I bought Candy Empire again!!
I know I am like buying them quite frequently..
But everything I buy them,
It's either I give away more than half of what I bought?
Or the rest is eaten by I don't know who...
They just disappear...
Haha..

Lesson time..
It was thursday I think...
Nan Lao Shi's Modern Literature...



Lynnette was playing around with my camera...
She claims that hers is running out of battery...
Haha..

Candid shot of Cheng Yao...
Haha..



Nan Lao Shi..!!!
Hehe..
He is a super nice teacher la~~~



Hui Yin was supposed to take photo for the bananas and she ended doing this....
HAHA...
It's normal actually...
Haha..









Lynnette ah!
Stop taking pictures during lessons ah!
Haha...

As usual..
My "night road" shots...





I'm tired.
I think I am falling sick soon...
Going to eat medicine and go to bed soon..
If not, I will get endless naggings tomorrow again..

=SmileX=
I know I should just throw you out.

It's contradicting.
I know I had gotten over you.
Yet am still yearning to know about you.
Wanting to see you.
Hoping that you will think about me occasionally.
Thinking that you want to talk to me too,
Just that you dare not.

Well, it's just my wishful thinking.
I know.

Letting go is not hard.
It's the forgetting.
It's not affecting me that much.
But I still can't stop thinking about you.
Guess it's a habit?



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因为家庭的生意，
我被逼着成长。
比别人早看见人的真面目、人的惰性、人的自私和社会的残酷。

失去的很多，得到的也不少。
有时很不甘愿、有时会抱怨。
严重时，可能还会讨厌。

其实，最近发现，这件事其实并没有那么糟。
能够尽自己的力帮忙，是值得开心的事。
家庭是最幸福的负担。

=SmileX=
也许是我对人的要求太高了。

Something's not right with the air recently.
It's making me lose control of my emotions.
And I am not liking it.


It just feels wrong.
Don't feel like doing anything.
Don't feel like saying anything.
Just want to be left alone.
To the extend of really being alone.
It's a scary feeling.
You can't control it.
You drop all the way down.
You come back up, slowly, on your own.


To find the best hideout is difficult.
A place where I am kept busy, be it mentally or physically.
Endless things to do, too much to think about other things.
Although running away will only bring more problems
It's the only thing I can and know how to do now..

[Learn it, Live it, Love it. When can I do it?]

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李玖哲《想太多》。

I can just live on this song the whole day.

Were things simple?
Did I simplify them too much?

Thinking too much?
Too much for me to handle?
This time, it's not just about my love life.
There are too many other things included.
Too many things I just don't understand.
Tried too hard to figure them out.
In vain, of course.
Disappointed with myself and the world.
It's mutating too much.
Turning into something feeling-less.
Something I can't understand, feel and fit in.

如果我的顾虑是多余的，那就好。
只可惜，世界确实在变化中。
世界在变，人也在变。
变得畸形，可怕的是，没有人知道。
也不会有人去正视这个问题。

Why can't I understand what others are thinking?

=SmileX=
Don't make an ASS out of U and ME.

Went to watch The Game Plan at Plaza Singapura with my family..
Watched the 9.10pm one..
Which ended at 11.20pm..

This is something I can't do with my friends...

I have a STRICT curfew of 11pm..
Haha..
It's a nice movie..
Touching..
About family ties rather than the normal BGR sort of movies...
























My favourite phrase from the movie...
"Learn it, Live it, Love it."


Not many people realise, how often we use the words "I", "ME", "MYSELF"
And when things happen,
The first question that pops into their mind is "SO WHAT ABOUT ME?"
*sigh*

Guess that's the world right now.
But sometimes, we really have to look further, far beyond just ourselves.

The father was ready to give up his career and everything,
Just to have his daughter back.
And to lead his life, together with his daughter.

It's a really big decision.

So what's the thing or person you would give up your everything for?

This is a question worth pondering.
Isn't it?

Some people might not have an answer to it..
Because they can't imagine living a life without themselves being under the limelight.

I once told Mummy
Nobody in this world is capable of living alone.
No matter how strong and capable you think you are,
It's undeniable, nobody can walk their whole life alone.

Sometimes it's not about how much the people around you can do for you.
Rather, it's about them being there for you.

Give it a thought.

=SmileX=
The truth is, life is just not about yourself.

As you can see...
New blogskin!!
Hehe..!
Prettty eh?
I changed the picture on top though..
It was from another blogskin..



It's Friday!
The day for Asian Cinema!
4 hours of lesson..
It's either you LOVE it?
or you will just have an extra 4 hours of nap..
HAHA

Watched 《东京物语》 during lessons today..
It's was touching..
VERY touching..
The characters inside were very real, almost similar to those around me..
I didn't cry though.
Not that I was heartless or feeling-less..
I just didn't want myself to cry..
So I swallowed the tears back in..
(Another reason was because I had mascara on.. HAHAHAHA)


Time for some pictures...
Some random ones I found while going thru my pictures folder.
All pictures are pictures of the sky...
I like taking pictures of the sky...
I don't know why..











Looks like a heart shape?




More pictures!
From deviantart.com...

By saiaii



By porcelainveins



By Y



By alicedepalma



By Dementee



That's all!

I have a weekend that is free...
Hmm.....

Study?
Shall see..
HAHA..

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Sometimes, I just need my life to be simple.
Like SIMPLE...

S-ometimes
I-t
M-akes
P-eople
L-ives
E-asier

Get it?

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I feel a need to say Sorry to someone.
Someone who used to be very important to me.
Someone I liked for the longest period of time.

After a LONG while of not contacting,
I said "hello" on msn.
And started talking with that someone.
Hmm...

Was I just reminiscing the past?
I guess I was just trying to use you..
To occupy myself..
To get over some things..
To make myself feel needed..


I'm sorry.
I didn't mean it.

=SmileX=
Is there a formula to simplify "LIFE"?

I just want to say..
I am feeling ok already..!

Not so emo already..
I've gotten over the issue(s)..

Hmm...

I think I am someone who is difficult to understand..
Haha..
My future boyfriend will have a HARD time...
(Provided I have one... hmm.. 10 years later?!)
HAHA...

Once again....
It's FRIDAY AGAIN...


Then SATURDAY
Then SUNDAY



Then it's Monday..*sigh*


Will things return to how they were?
For this weekend?
We shall see.......

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Just realised recently that "love" is a big word.
It's a word full of endless committments, promises, and responsibilities...
But it's a common word for many to use.


But I am someone who dare not use it.
Because even I am unsure about the consequences of it...
Unsure if I am ready to bear them...

Till now.
I've only said it to one person.

And that person?
Is my Mummy.
I love my Mummy.
No matter what.

It's a comforting fact to know that a listening ear will always be there for you,
To stand by you and give you the most timely support.

I guess this shows how careful I am with this word.

Let's wait for the day,
That the guywho makes me have to courage to use this word
Appears in my life
And makes a difference to it.
Till then.....







总有雨过天晴的时候。



=SmileX=
If only life could be simpler... I would love it even more.